When I asked my friend if it's really irritating to hang out someone who's depressed all the time

She said, "sometimes it's not only about pretending whether you're happy or not, we have to think about how the people around us might feel. I mean, it'll affect your friends' moods if you always appear to be sad and they can't do anything to help you right?"

Yeah I told her I don't want to pretend to be happy. I don't know what to do because I hate having to pretend yet if I don't...I'll affect the mood of everyone including mine. It's a neverending cycle I can never get out of. I bet that I'd be depressed and all after awhile, anyway.


& yes, to continue that thing.

Day 2 — Your Crush.

He knows who he is so you don't have to know. The only reason why he knows is because I figured it'd always remain as a crush (and more like a friend now). I have no idea why telling him allowed me to treat him more like a friend and not a crush but it does.

You may stare at this in shock and horror now - sometimes I think I'm secretly a guy you know? Or maybe I just felt like saying it, else it'd be on my mind for Godknowshowlong and that feeling sucks.

Sometimes I do wonder if anybody's liked me before. Hmm. I'm far too weird and un-ladylike for a girl, ain't I?